dreams?

so, i was thinking about something i had heard about dreams..
like, we dream about we sub-consciencely want to happen..
and i had the weirdest dream last night.
i'll explain the gyst of it.
i was at school, in the band room, and we weren't having class as usual, so people were just doing whatever they pleased...apparently saxton and brittany broke up because saxton was talking to me alot and sort of sitting by me..(for some reason, brittany hates me, i think it's because i've had a crush on saxton for a while, but i don't really care, because i don't like her either..annnd i really like zach, so she can have saxton, i just want to be friends with him, i think....)
anyway, so saxton was sitting by me, and i thiiink we were watching a movie or something, and like, our arms touched and i thought maybe i did it without knowing, so i moved but then it happened again and i knew he did it on purpose..so then i guess the movie disappears because we start talking and laughing and getting along great and we just get closer and closer, and by the end of the dream we are locked armed, holding hands..
and in my dream i felt bad because i really liked zach, and i knew i shouldn't do anything, but i didnt seem to care because i still did it.. because i guess i thought it was harmless because me and saxton are just friends..but then again i liked it, because i used to have feelings for saxton..and i'm not sure about zach now because its really long distance, we've never met, and we hardly talk now :/

so, that was my dream.
it was very odd.
i've had another dream about saxton too, and it involved the spice girls, and i'm a little embarassed to say it, so i'm not going to. haha.



annnd, right now zach is on myspace, and i said hi to him and asked him how he was, and he's replying with one word answers, basically. he said he didnt feel good, and i can understand that, he's got drunk the past 2 nights..and he said he doesnt remember anything that happened..
And i'm kind of scared that he did something with some girl, because, when people get drunk, they get horny. i know this for a fact. and i'll completely understand if he tells me, because being drunk is a very good excuse, as long as it doesn't happen again.
but he lost his truck and his phone which was in his truck, so i wont get to talk to him on the phone, until he finds his truck, and then i imagine he'll get in trouble...because, i mean, who wouldnt get in trouble for losing your car while you're completely anibreated?

i realllllly like him alot.
and i have come to find out that i'm kinda like, the ''jealous girlfriend'' type.. haha, and thats badd.
but i just have security issues i guess, because there's millions of girls better than me, and if i know this, the boy i like is sure to find out sometime.
if that makes sence.

anyway..
i'll probably write more later on,
but i'm going to go watch some tv with my mom..and then i'm going to attempt to do the 'soulja boy'..lol